Rubber Mare

I mentioned it already in my previous post, and there we are: a hu-mare at S'n'R!

Mistress Dio has put a nice report on my transformation on their blog, also with some pictures. She suggested that I would blog a little while spending time waiting in the box for someone to let me out to run laps…
And that's exactly what I'm doing right now: waiting in a box in the stable for some human to open the door and let me out, or take my reins or whatever they want, since I am not able to do much more than be a dumb horse.

- oh wait, there is a human! … Bummer, she didn't let me out. -
If you want to know what a huMare looks like, you can look at the pictures on the Maurer's Blog, or you can come visit Stones'n'Rubber, where you can find some Rubber Mares most of the time. What you can't see from the outside however, is how it looks and feels from the inside. Some notecard might tell you about the program and the heavy restrictions it involves, but i's difficult to imagine if you've never experienced it. The HuMare program is described as very strict and harsh, and maybe because of that it was exactly what was attracting me in it.

Let's give a quick overview of my restricted world: what comes to the eye first, is the limited vision. Not alone am I forced to mouselook constantly, I have to peek through eyeholes also, and to top it off there's also a pair of blinders narrowing my sight. The eyeholes are not that bad to be honest, I have been finding my way around with smaller peek holes in the MD gas mask. The combination with the blinkers is a bit… wicked though, as the combined effect of the holes is more than just a smaller view field: seen through the eyeholes, the blinkers are easily misinterpreted by the brain for a wall or something, thus giving the feeling of a less limited vision than you actually have… nice.
Within this restriction, the mouselook is not much of a limitation, as I found out long ago with the MD mask that mouselook actually is the best way to find your way with a vision limited like this.

I'm not sure I even tried, but talking of course is prevented also. IM is totally blocked too, but that's a good thing as it is only distractive. ^^

And hearing? I have no idea what is said around me, although I am not to be considered completely deaf. HuMares have some kind of "pet hearing", meaning they can't understand human chat initially, but they can learn to understand some words eventually. I have written a similar script also.

Further on, I have absolutely no touch. What would I touch with my hoofs? And no names, mares are just mares, humans are just humans, although I am sure I will recognize close family members on sight when they visit. If they don't disguise themself too much, of course.

All this restrictions are putting me in a rather strict isolation. But I think I can say I am used to this, as I have experienced similar restrictions before, even for prolonged times. For short times anyone might support this…

My commitment here is for at least 4 weeks, but to be honest, I think it will be some more. This is because of the hardest part of the whole program: huMares have to run laps, 1000 a week. So that's 4000 laps in total for me. And I won't get released before I make them…

Actually, I don't want to get released too early, I don't care to be a Rubber Mare for more than 4 weeks. Making all those laps on the other side, is something that is not really attracting me. But I chose it, and I want to succeed and finish it! This all of course is my opinion now, maybe I'll squeak otherwise within a few weeks…

whinnies, Danii