Here you see a nice picture of our little family: from left to right you can see my sis Queen, Mistress Chantal, me (with nice bondage mittens) and Mistress Pike.
This one is even nicer I think.
I love you all 3. See you...
xXx
Thursday, January 31, 2008
See you later!
For my friends and others reading this: I won't be around for nearly the whole month of February. Don't panic, I will return!
Here you see a nice picture of our little family: from left to right you can see my sis Queen, Mistress Chantal, me (with nice bondage mittens) and Mistress Pike.
This one is even nicer I think.
I love you all 3. See you...
xXx
Here you see a nice picture of our little family: from left to right you can see my sis Queen, Mistress Chantal, me (with nice bondage mittens) and Mistress Pike.
This one is even nicer I think.
I love you all 3. See you...
xXx
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Jail, the release
We got released!
I was set free sunday night, and yesterday Mistress Pike also got her freedom back. I for me was very happy to be back home again, cuddle Mistress Chantal and my sis Queen, eat and drink and smell the fresh air. I'm not sure about Mistress Pike, she seems still to feel a little lost since her other girl Summer left her.
I'm so afraid to lose her! I don't wanna lose my sis Queen or Mistress Chantal either, but without Pike I would be lost. I know I can not ask for all of her time and attention though, I can only hold her like you hold sand: with open hands. If you close your hands, the sand slips away between your fingers.
I was so happy to wait for her release at the prison gate, to hold her in my arms as soon as she appeared!
After those 2 weeks of intense prison rp, I need some time off, and as I will be out off SL in February, I want to take it light for the rest of the week. Mistress Chantal agreed to apply some light restrictions on me, being locked ballet boots and bondage mittens, which prevent me of using my hands. But I can trip around, see and speak as I want.
Of course we won't forget Mistress Chantals birthday on January 30. Whether you know her or not, can you send a birthday wish to Chantal Eun? Please?
I was set free sunday night, and yesterday Mistress Pike also got her freedom back. I for me was very happy to be back home again, cuddle Mistress Chantal and my sis Queen, eat and drink and smell the fresh air. I'm not sure about Mistress Pike, she seems still to feel a little lost since her other girl Summer left her.
I'm so afraid to lose her! I don't wanna lose my sis Queen or Mistress Chantal either, but without Pike I would be lost. I know I can not ask for all of her time and attention though, I can only hold her like you hold sand: with open hands. If you close your hands, the sand slips away between your fingers.
I was so happy to wait for her release at the prison gate, to hold her in my arms as soon as she appeared!
After those 2 weeks of intense prison rp, I need some time off, and as I will be out off SL in February, I want to take it light for the rest of the week. Mistress Chantal agreed to apply some light restrictions on me, being locked ballet boots and bondage mittens, which prevent me of using my hands. But I can trip around, see and speak as I want.
Of course we won't forget Mistress Chantals birthday on January 30. Whether you know her or not, can you send a birthday wish to Chantal Eun? Please?
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Jail, part 4
A skinny avatar like me isn't made for the harsh treatment you get in SL Jail.
There's the lack of food and clothes, there's the hard beds without pillow or blanket, and there's the cold. Altogether this has made me very ill, so my transfer to the prison hospital was the next logic step in the RP. I've been there for 2 nights now, still suffering undercooling and a sporadic panic attack.
Pike was allowed to visit me, I think the whole prison knows by now we are very close. Her visit was very emotional, as I was playing a mild panic attack which made me beg for her not to leave me.
Another visit I got was even more surprising: my little sis Queen came visit me! :-)
In her condition! Mistress Chantal has severely gagged her and her arms and legs were bound very tight, so she could only hop around and utter some gag mumble or short emotes. IM was also disabled, since she is - just like me - using the RL Viewer all the time!
I think the guards must have had a lot of fun seeing a visitor far more restricted than their own prisoners, hopping her way to the visitors room where she could not even really talk to me. Even without the restraints, she would have been very sexy in her tight white latex outfit.
My sis came to visit me, and made me feel better :-))
Thank you sis!
As Jayleia already mentioned in a reply to my previous post, Rendell Carter is a guard here and he is a very good roleplayer. He was the one taking me back to the hospital after Qt's visit, and I believe we both enjoyed the RP that came with it.
How unfortunate for his character I was too far gone in illness to be of any interest for his movie! ;-)
PS: RL everything is fine with me. Just in case of doubt...
There's the lack of food and clothes, there's the hard beds without pillow or blanket, and there's the cold. Altogether this has made me very ill, so my transfer to the prison hospital was the next logic step in the RP. I've been there for 2 nights now, still suffering undercooling and a sporadic panic attack.
Pike was allowed to visit me, I think the whole prison knows by now we are very close. Her visit was very emotional, as I was playing a mild panic attack which made me beg for her not to leave me.
Another visit I got was even more surprising: my little sis Queen came visit me! :-)
In her condition! Mistress Chantal has severely gagged her and her arms and legs were bound very tight, so she could only hop around and utter some gag mumble or short emotes. IM was also disabled, since she is - just like me - using the RL Viewer all the time!
I think the guards must have had a lot of fun seeing a visitor far more restricted than their own prisoners, hopping her way to the visitors room where she could not even really talk to me. Even without the restraints, she would have been very sexy in her tight white latex outfit.
My sis came to visit me, and made me feel better :-))
Thank you sis!
As Jayleia already mentioned in a reply to my previous post, Rendell Carter is a guard here and he is a very good roleplayer. He was the one taking me back to the hospital after Qt's visit, and I believe we both enjoyed the RP that came with it.
How unfortunate for his character I was too far gone in illness to be of any interest for his movie! ;-)
PS: RL everything is fine with me. Just in case of doubt...
Monday, January 21, 2008
Jail, part 3
We've had our trials. My release date has been set to january 27th, Pike's to the 28th.
Prison here is much harder now than it was at Tesscatraz. It might be the prison regime, which is - to say the least - different. Or it might be the fact that this time, I have some very precious friends waiting outside. Mistress Chantal of course, who has to live with the idea of 2 of her girls being convicted "criminals".
But maybe in the first place my little sis Queen, who I believe misses me at least as much as I am missing her.
Miss you sis!
One more week and I come back home!
Don't feel so left alone,
don't be mad,
don't make me feel sad.
Sis loves you
Prison here is much harder now than it was at Tesscatraz. It might be the prison regime, which is - to say the least - different. Or it might be the fact that this time, I have some very precious friends waiting outside. Mistress Chantal of course, who has to live with the idea of 2 of her girls being convicted "criminals".
But maybe in the first place my little sis Queen, who I believe misses me at least as much as I am missing her.
Miss you sis!
One more week and I come back home!
Don't feel so left alone,
don't be mad,
don't make me feel sad.
Sis loves you
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Jail, part 2
We've been transferred from the SLBI holding cells to SL Jail now, where we will have to wait for our trials and sit our sentence.
Pike and I were both horrified when we had to take off our beloved collars. Mistress Chantal will be so terrified when she hears this! We can only hope we get out in time for her birthday...
Oh... it seems there's a monitor on the Internet where you can see who's in here...
I read they sometimes allow prisoners to be visited - hint, hint-
Or a little word of encouragement?
Pike and I were both horrified when we had to take off our beloved collars. Mistress Chantal will be so terrified when she hears this! We can only hope we get out in time for her birthday...
Oh... it seems there's a monitor on the Internet where you can see who's in here...
I read they sometimes allow prisoners to be visited - hint, hint-
Or a little word of encouragement?
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Jail...
Mistress Pike and I got arrested for... uhm... things we did.
We are now in a cell (actually two cells) in the basement of the SLBI headquarters. The Special Agent who arrested us and is now interrogating us, Jayleia Greene, is the one you see in the front of the third picture. The first pic is me and the second is Mistress Pike, lying on the hard prison bed.
Next step will be us being sent to SL Jail, I guess. Oh yes, the big chief, Ollalla Sugarbeet, passed by also, and even had her gun pointed at me, while I was totally harmless and unable to hide in my locked cell!
Aah... it's what I call a good roleplay!
Thanks girls, I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!
xXx
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Submissive feelings
On this picture, you can see me and Mistress Pike. I'm the one disabled to talk, see, or use hands. But I can hear Mistress' loving heartbeat!
Did I tell already I am a switch? My feelings vary with time, I need a balance between the Domme and sub side to be good at either side. But recently, my sub side has been quite on starvation, which made me not feel well in the end.
That's until Mistress Chantal and also Mistress Pike interfered and decided I am not allowed to Domme for now. I happily agreed with them.
Important part of the story is my little slavegirl Queen, needing more attention and energy input than I could give. She had problems with my "degradation" too, since I can not be her Mistress anymore for so long. But Mistress Chantal & Pike take care of her -and me- and she is accepting I am her sister now.
Sister in need at the moment. Where this picture was taken just before I fell asleep (logged off) last night, I am still in the same situation now, and no Mistress online to release me. But sis is at my side, and although she is gagged just like me, she can see and use her hands. I feel safe in her loving arms, even without the possibility of a real communication -yes, we're both using the RL viewer, so no IM.
Oh... here comes Mistress Pike to release me!
Bye now.. leave me a note will you?
xXx
Did I tell already I am a switch? My feelings vary with time, I need a balance between the Domme and sub side to be good at either side. But recently, my sub side has been quite on starvation, which made me not feel well in the end.
That's until Mistress Chantal and also Mistress Pike interfered and decided I am not allowed to Domme for now. I happily agreed with them.
Important part of the story is my little slavegirl Queen, needing more attention and energy input than I could give. She had problems with my "degradation" too, since I can not be her Mistress anymore for so long. But Mistress Chantal & Pike take care of her -and me- and she is accepting I am her sister now.
Sister in need at the moment. Where this picture was taken just before I fell asleep (logged off) last night, I am still in the same situation now, and no Mistress online to release me. But sis is at my side, and although she is gagged just like me, she can see and use her hands. I feel safe in her loving arms, even without the possibility of a real communication -yes, we're both using the RL viewer, so no IM.
Oh... here comes Mistress Pike to release me!
Bye now.. leave me a note will you?
xXx
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Eudeamon
SL is down for maintenance, so I've got some time to blog...
I happened to visit Marine Kelley's blog a couple of days ago, looking for any news about her RestrainedLife Viewer. What she writes about the upcoming version 1.05 sounds great, but there was something else that got my attention...
In a couple of posts, she writes about a Banishment Project, Banes, Custodians and Eudeamons, all things I never heard of before. But the vague references to a novel and the description how she wants to translate it to SL, made me want to know more. So I googled around a little (I hadn't even noticed Marine put a link to the story in her blog!) and almost couldn't stop reading until I finished the story.
Next I couldn't help starting to think about it.
Warning: this post might contain some spoilers
First reason I could think of why I got so triggered by the whole thing, is the isolation and sensory deprivation that it got. While there is no clue in absolute deafness and blindness in SL, the partial sensory deprivation that is suggested, getting worse or better according to you behaviour, is very appealing. Mmmmm, am I hitting a personal fetish here?
This combined with the frustration of not being able to communicate and the absolute lack of an escape -as far as you keep using the RL Viewer of course- must make the proposed Banishment experience a hell of a self test.
After that I started to see some resemblance between parts of Katrina's story and my own SL! I already told it in an earlier post: once I was so bored in SL that I deliberately went for a -by definition- boring experience in the Tesscatraz prison, thinking it couldn't get worse anymore, and I kind of got reborn!
After that, I cannot help but needing very strict and preferably restricting sub sessions now and then. And yes, I am in one of those submissive periods right now, even having denounced all of my Domme rights for a while. Maybe I'll write about that later (or maybe not). So can you imagine my longing for a Eudeamonian Banishment?
Of course there is also my fascination for good written scripts and well made SL toys. It makes me a big fan of great SL scripting wizards and builders like.... no, I'm not gonna put names here, because I will most certainly forget many I don't want to!
Big deal of this fascination of mine is the obsession of discovering how they are doing it. No, I am not hacking into their scripts or whatever, I respect the effort they put in it and might even give them suggestions for free if I encounter flaws. My "hacking" is done by thinking and digging into LSL manuals, and just getting an idea of how to do it if I were to do it myself, satisfies me enough. Oh yes, I'm into scripting too, and I might be able to create similar scripts, if only I were not that lazy as I am...
Finally, my thinking got me further than personal concerns.
The banes experience the world through an interface that is not part of their human body: it's not their eyes, not their ears. Other senses are even cut off or limited even further!
Isn't that exactly the way we experience SL? We all experience the virtual world and commute with it through a very narrow interface that exists of a 2dimensional -for the most of us I guess- screen and a keyboard. Oh yeah, a mouse and some audio stuff too, but that's not much changing my point.
Have you ever thought of how limiting this interface is? Wouldn't you like a RL banesuit with a plug to connect your brain directly to the Internet and the magic world of SecondLife?
I happened to visit Marine Kelley's blog a couple of days ago, looking for any news about her RestrainedLife Viewer. What she writes about the upcoming version 1.05 sounds great, but there was something else that got my attention...
In a couple of posts, she writes about a Banishment Project, Banes, Custodians and Eudeamons, all things I never heard of before. But the vague references to a novel and the description how she wants to translate it to SL, made me want to know more. So I googled around a little (I hadn't even noticed Marine put a link to the story in her blog!) and almost couldn't stop reading until I finished the story.
Next I couldn't help starting to think about it.
Warning: this post might contain some spoilers
First reason I could think of why I got so triggered by the whole thing, is the isolation and sensory deprivation that it got. While there is no clue in absolute deafness and blindness in SL, the partial sensory deprivation that is suggested, getting worse or better according to you behaviour, is very appealing. Mmmmm, am I hitting a personal fetish here?
This combined with the frustration of not being able to communicate and the absolute lack of an escape -as far as you keep using the RL Viewer of course- must make the proposed Banishment experience a hell of a self test.
After that I started to see some resemblance between parts of Katrina's story and my own SL! I already told it in an earlier post: once I was so bored in SL that I deliberately went for a -by definition- boring experience in the Tesscatraz prison, thinking it couldn't get worse anymore, and I kind of got reborn!
After that, I cannot help but needing very strict and preferably restricting sub sessions now and then. And yes, I am in one of those submissive periods right now, even having denounced all of my Domme rights for a while. Maybe I'll write about that later (or maybe not). So can you imagine my longing for a Eudeamonian Banishment?
Of course there is also my fascination for good written scripts and well made SL toys. It makes me a big fan of great SL scripting wizards and builders like.... no, I'm not gonna put names here, because I will most certainly forget many I don't want to!
Big deal of this fascination of mine is the obsession of discovering how they are doing it. No, I am not hacking into their scripts or whatever, I respect the effort they put in it and might even give them suggestions for free if I encounter flaws. My "hacking" is done by thinking and digging into LSL manuals, and just getting an idea of how to do it if I were to do it myself, satisfies me enough. Oh yes, I'm into scripting too, and I might be able to create similar scripts, if only I were not that lazy as I am...
Finally, my thinking got me further than personal concerns.
The banes experience the world through an interface that is not part of their human body: it's not their eyes, not their ears. Other senses are even cut off or limited even further!
Isn't that exactly the way we experience SL? We all experience the virtual world and commute with it through a very narrow interface that exists of a 2dimensional -for the most of us I guess- screen and a keyboard. Oh yeah, a mouse and some audio stuff too, but that's not much changing my point.
Have you ever thought of how limiting this interface is? Wouldn't you like a RL banesuit with a plug to connect your brain directly to the Internet and the magic world of SecondLife?
Issues...
Mmmmm, my photography is not working out apparently, and I can tell you why...
You should know I use the RealRestraint viewer instead of the regular one. I believe it's not difficult to guess why, as it really enhances sl in the direction of my interests.
And there is more: I have the strong impression it is even more stabile than the original one, especially on my MacBook Pro. Yeah, there are some issues on this particular machine...
The Mac version of the RealRestraint viewer is build by Mo Noel, and as I discovered and she describes on her support blog, it has some graphic issues. I'm not going to explain, as Mo does this already, but my sl view, and the pictures I take, suffer from it.
But hey, I'm gonna try the workaround she suggests! Let's hope it gets me somewhere...
You should know I use the RealRestraint viewer instead of the regular one. I believe it's not difficult to guess why, as it really enhances sl in the direction of my interests.
And there is more: I have the strong impression it is even more stabile than the original one, especially on my MacBook Pro. Yeah, there are some issues on this particular machine...
The Mac version of the RealRestraint viewer is build by Mo Noel, and as I discovered and she describes on her support blog, it has some graphic issues. I'm not going to explain, as Mo does this already, but my sl view, and the pictures I take, suffer from it.
But hey, I'm gonna try the workaround she suggests! Let's hope it gets me somewhere...
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Happy Newyear!
Should I resolve to post more?
Maybe. But I read somewhere the road to Hell is paved with good resolutions... so I guess we will just see what happens.
Somewhere I thought I could try to post some pictures here, maybe that will go easier with me than typing stories.
Lets start with the pictures I've got on my harddisk... oh bummer, it crashed you remember?! So there is only one I found:
This is me at the feet of Mistress Chantal. I was a little afraid of her in the beginning, since she is a really good and thus very strict Mistress, and I was entering her house as Mistress Pike's pet. You know my Mistress, Pike, is a switch just like me and she belongs to Mistress Chantal. But now I love her too, and while my heart still lies with Mistress Pike in the first place, I am happy to submit to her too. Not that I have another choice of course...
I like making pictures, and I just realize they make it easier telling a story. Tell me whose photo you'd like to see, and I'll do my best..
Oh, my best wishes for 2008 of course!
xXx
Maybe. But I read somewhere the road to Hell is paved with good resolutions... so I guess we will just see what happens.
Somewhere I thought I could try to post some pictures here, maybe that will go easier with me than typing stories.
Lets start with the pictures I've got on my harddisk... oh bummer, it crashed you remember?! So there is only one I found:
This is me at the feet of Mistress Chantal. I was a little afraid of her in the beginning, since she is a really good and thus very strict Mistress, and I was entering her house as Mistress Pike's pet. You know my Mistress, Pike, is a switch just like me and she belongs to Mistress Chantal. But now I love her too, and while my heart still lies with Mistress Pike in the first place, I am happy to submit to her too. Not that I have another choice of course...
I like making pictures, and I just realize they make it easier telling a story. Tell me whose photo you'd like to see, and I'll do my best..
Oh, my best wishes for 2008 of course!
xXx