The unbearable emptiness of life

I know, my Syllie and also her friends, and my friends are caring for me, and I ought to be thankful for that. Believe me, I am. But somehow there is missing something. Or better said: there is missing someone.

I know it's rl keeping Mistress Pike away, not any prison or sl play this time. I know she still loves me, and misses me too. But even though long long long time ago I promised myself not to get attached too emotionally to anyone in sl anymore, I unconsciously must have grown into a state of submissive love to my Mistress.

Added to this missing, I am in a rather submissive mood at the moment. I got some offers from different people: Chantal is still offering a place. Also Miss Novi, my former doll trainer, would not mind to have me back. Even Syllie... she is offering to turn around our relationship and to become my Mistress.
But that would involve my collar too, and I simply cannot leave Pike. Miss Novi is sweet, kind, but maybe not present enough in sl.
And Chantal... I'm not sure how that would work out. She has her other girls now, requiring her attention. And she still lives in Dubai, in a world of sand and water. But she's still a friend, and I suspect it's her renters who impose this bad sim design taste on her.

I have to admit banishment is appealing too, and some prisons and stuff. It's just... I'm afraid of getting bored. But maybe I am bored already? Maybe it's time for another Tesscatraz?